Salme @ Wolf

Hey. I got real in my head and was trying to mind my own business and not ask you how you were doing unless you wanted to talk, but I’ve realize lately that’s exceptionally silly. The Truth That Burns and then the Beast. How are you doing?

I’ve been. Light, I knew this was going to be harder on Aurelius than he said it would be, but seeing how hard it is on him is … well. First time since I’ve rediscovered my own volition where I’ve realized I can’t do much of anything other than be there.

Still, there are other things that can be done. I was in the library for a long time last night working through … some of my own issues, but I realized we’re sitting on some information about Zosimos that I’d like to share. I know you weren’t ready though.

Also I do want to do those gnosis-work experiments. I do wonder if we tried to make the same thing out of pellucid-burning-flourishing as radiant-tenebrous-liminal if it would turn out the same? And I wonder if one could use a different tripartite weave (say flourishing-burning-tenebrous) to accomplish the same goal. Does the stability simply make it easier or is it necessary?

Oh. I also have a rash thing to tell you about, but I’d like to share it with you directly.

“Rash,” hmm? I await with bated breath…

On the gnosis-work and the library: yes, of course. I suppose I must learn to create those blasted…ah, those very useful folios. The gnosis-work is, perhaps, more interesting to me, but perhaps the two lessons can be combined. Your questions are excellent–still carrying a little Samudra with you, eh?

And as for Aurelius–I understand. The hardest thing, as a yeresh, has always been those times when I could not help; or when the wisest course of action was to let another walk their own path, even when it was painful. I have found, in those cases, that the best thing to do is to find something you can do, even if it’s not directly related to that problem. “Busy hands lighten the heart,” as my old master might have said. Trust his resiliency, sister. He is strong, just as you are, and he will find his way. Hold him gently, and allow him to stumble–simply be there to help him up again.

Wolf you really aren’t beating the dad allegations. “Blasted folios.” I’m happy to combine the two lessons, but I’m also happy to jumpstart the folio collation process with what memories I can access. Archie also reached out to me about tripartite gnosis weaves too, so he may be interested. As for Samudra … I mean, I suppose? We carry parts of everyplace we go with us, don’t we? But Samudra changed me just as I changed it. It was not always my favorite place, but I did try to learn what lessons I could.

I know he will find his way. I know that with absolute certainty. It does not make watching him hurt any more pleasant, though. And I am trying to stay busy, but I always am trying to stay busy.

You didn’t answer my question about how you are doing, Wolf. Or do you too also need time?

Ah, well. If being who I am is a “dad,” then such is what I am, I suppose. ‘Tis my role and my nature, regardless of the name, aye?

And forgive me, I was not attempting to dodge the question–I am quite well! My conversation with our good Narrator helped assuage what concerns I had, and now…it is simply a matter of taking the next step on the road, same as it always has been. I am who I am and I am who I choose to be, I believe, Angels and Truth not withstanding.

It is strangely…exhilarating, here on the Beast. The Worldsong here is deeply different from either Almachadta’s or Samudra’s…it drives. But there is something beneath it, too, something…which I cannot help but feel is somehow connected to Lucja. I shall have to speak with him soon.

Well you could, perhaps, be a bit less suspicious of the technology. Just a bit.

I’ve gotten several interesting lessons from … hm. Some of those who journey alongside us, or exist in this space, but are not here with us. Both a stranger and someone very familiar have entreated me to enjoy us being alive in the here and now. I think yours is the correct lesson to take in that regard.

However, if you do wish to know about how I’ve come to understand this particular aspect of our world I have … extensive, though somewhat contradictory notes. Please feel free to rely on me, too. Jokes about your role as dad aside, you’re my friend and I’m here to help.

Oh. You absolutely should speak with Luĉja. Did you ever get to share Worldsongs with one another? Oh! Speaking of which, I do want to see about refining Methexis, or at least our versions of Methexis, into techne at least for myself (possibly for yourself, if you’ve any interest). I had some success with Caion.

I also perhaps may have some problems I require your wisdom on, but only if you are in an adequate place to do so. They are old problems, I fear, so I ask your patience in that regard.

Hey Wolf, I wanted to. Apologize, I guess? For getting distracted at the end of the Rite and being laser-focused on Jae. We’d been. It was trippy, to realize the friend I’d been talking to lately was the Scorpion Queen. Still, you were magnificent and it seems like everyone was able to care for you.

Still. I felt a little like … I had betrayed an unspoken vow to stand with you always. So. Yeah.