Salme @ Awoken

I just wanted to check in and let you know I … well. I’ve been really focused on Aury since we got here, and then very absent as I worked through some things for myself. I didn’t want you to feel like I didn’t still adore every inch of you. I do.

uhhhh yeah of course you would be focused on aury, he looks like he saw a ghost that was flesh and blood, which is unusual for a ghost to have

got your focus on saranzaya, or ‘zaya’, too? ;)

I think he probably more feels like the ghost? Or. I don’t know. A lot of feelings happening.

I—hm. I like Zaya. She’s very beautiful, and I think I’ll come to care about her very much indeed. That said, I’m not really interested in exploring other partners outside of what I have with you and Aurelius. If I were a different person, interested in simple physical connection, or even more casual sex between friends, I would easily say yes if she asked, but I’m not.

That is, of course, not a restriction on anything you might want to do, and I’d be your companion through very many such adventures. But I’d hope you know that by now.

Ugh sorry I don’t know why I’m being so formal with you. I’ve been thinking a lot. Anyway, sorry I didn’t come to bed last night. I stayed up all night, first with Aury, then just thinking. I think we’re out of the messy bitch mines, or at least on a less gnarly level, but it’s been. Weird.

Hope you’re causing some fun trouble.

Also. I had been intending to maybe suggest going shopping for new clothing together, but Zaya’s offered to help me out once we get to Queenstown, and I know you’ll enjoy the surprise, so I was wondering if you had any thoughts or opinions about my clothing. Outfits you’ve particularly liked, that sort of thing. Just gathering some inspiration <3.

patterns. beastly patterns. tufts. a dash of hued metal that compliments. bear your fangs at your hips.

I meant to ask you before you fell asleep, but. I’ve been working on. Hm.

So.

I know you aren’t allergic to gifts or gestures or wanting things, but I’d like to know more about. Little things that make you happy? Coffee. Provolone cheese. People being their uninhibited selves.

Sometimes, I’m trying to hard to pry things out of Aury I worry I’m neglecting you, but I love you with all my heart as well (it’s a big heart. There’s lots of room).

i like…

you <3

bold beginnings

storied middles

happy endings

i like… atmosphere. crafted or natural. you know what i mean, when you go into a space and it’s STRIKING to the aesthetic senses, to fully channel an emotion or vibe

i like the loud and ostentatious, of course! but also. the quiet. the secured. each beat has a place in a story. without levity, horror would be exhausting.

i like warm drinks with something sweet, cold drinks with something savory. there’s a cheese-based cake I sampled in almachadta- absolutely delicious.

i’m fond of many crafts, although sometimes i wonder if i should get something crystalline.

Hey what do you know I like you too <3.

Cheesecake! There are so many recipes. I’ll have to see if I can learn to make it for you.

Ooh? What are you thinking for something crystalline? Clothing? Weapon? Decor?

(Anything will be a delight, Sininen, but there are so many possibilities)